Flicher

I wish I could tell you I was doing okay the words and emotions would be one in the same I want to smile and feel the happiness rush through me what a world it would be if my emotions followed the words that I wished them to be.

There are days You won't find me I left my puppet far behind me  hidden in that hole in my head curling up naturally waiting for things to get back to  how they are  supposed to be. 

Death so easily smiled at she waved hello it eloquently bowed back

I despise all the little wretches who believe they are always right I hate the overwhelming feeling of steam burning from my ears The frustration as it burrows a painful hole in my flesh of a heart I am cut to pieces when people make me feel as if I am the crazy one this is a godforsaken world of dreamers and cheats who will lie to make anything real and reel in their sorrow when it turns out is was just a nightmare I hope in the many helps they wake up with their fingers and eyes burning knowing this is reality.

Living in a snow globe calmly staring the world convulses beneath me I have nothing to offer there is no music between the swaying there is isolated laughter gazing on as the snow fell delicately came to rest upon my solemn head to forever be looking out my world rocking the snow falling imagining how it must feel to perish

"You will have to read it to me someday." "I swear it is a wonderful book about you."  "If its about me. I cannot figure out how that could be." She crawled into the quiet shell comforting herself with familiarity  hiding from the world she pretended it was as empty as her heart felt as painful as her throat when  she swallowed back the tears as sorrowful as the water  running quietly down the pillows  slowly absorbed while she  choked on her own sadness coughing up what little she had as she paled and flushed  attempting to get the air her body desired in its  dreary and weakened state it was tiring

I'd give up everything just to make you content but it isn't my fight  or my gift to give You gave up everything without even looking or acknowledging what others would  give for you We gave up  because we thought we were selfless but reality can lie to you

He said he loved me but there was a difference I said I love him but did I mean it? We didn't know what it truly was Why we say it and what it entailed